The Biggest Loser (Again)

"Losing would be painful, but not as painful as knowing there was something else you could've done." ~Joe Trippi 

Here I go again.  Losing.  Again.  I guess you could call me a loser.  Because I’ve gained and lost this weight so many times I can’t even count.  And I could give a million excuses why I’ve gained the weight – pregnancies, miscarriages, a never-ending broken foot – but the fact of the matter is I’m still here.  Basically at my highest weight again.  Well, almost.  I reached that point again last year and I’ve lost 30 pounds since then. I guess that makes me a gainer more than a loser.

I took a few weeks off from logging my food and exercising over the holidays.  In that time, I gained about 8 pounds.  Yikes!  In a couple of weeks!  Some of that was probably water weight (excuses again).  So I get to lose it again.  Again.  But the trendline continues to go down this time.  Slowly.  I didn’t gain the weight overnight so I can’t expect to lose it that quickly.

I figure I have probably lost enough to be at my goal weight at least four times.  That means I have lost my entire body weight at least twice!  And I kept gaining it back.  I don’t want to ever have to start again.  I won’t start again.  2013 will be my last fat year!

As the quote said, "losing will be painful."  But it's not nearly as painful as knowing that all that hard work was wasted.  Again.  There will be a ton of sweat and lots of pain and strains.  There are going to be days I want to just give in and give up.  I will have to constantly push at it and make real life changes that will help carry me to the finish line and beyond.

So this is it.  Finally.  For good.  This time, when I watch the Biggest Loser, I will be losing the weight with them, not just cheering them on.  When I participate in the Biggest Loser contest at work again, whether I win or lose, I will keep the weight off.  Each week when I weigh in on the scale, it will be lower.  Even if it is a half a pound, a loss is a loss.  No matter what, I plan to be the Biggest Loser I know and that makes me a winner :)